Monday, September 29, 2008

back to square one.

back to work after 2 months.

Initial reflex actions/ reactions/ realisations:
# The 1km drive to work today seems like the longest trip I've had in ages.
# The air freshener at office. It is repugnant. suffocating.
# The worst sound in the whole wide world- of swiping my access card at entry.
# People. Faces. Hey, who's this guy coming across at the walkway? Looks like a long-forgotten face.. lemme smile.. Wha?? Was it an exclamation or a question mark on his face? Gawd, I'm such a forgettable person!
# Another friendly-long-forgotten face.. ok, this one smiles.. He says I seem to have lost a lot of weight! good! nice! But, what's his name? gosh! I'm a forgetful person too, in addition to being forgettable. How nice a combination!
# I don't quite remember the current username-password combi of my desktop. Great!
# OK, now I don't remember my phone/voice-mail password too!! Double great!!
# I'm growing old.
# I hate this place.
# Why am I here?
# This is not a profession. It's just a job. Just a job.
# After 2 months, it's back to being a RESOURCE.

How does it feel? well... umm.. ahem...
God bless my soul!

The best thing about being on hibernation from the world for a while is that, I got to know who cares, and what matters the most. Time, which helped me re-assess my priorities. But then, once back to the same old world, it needs to be seen how I manage to implement it differently this time around. I hope I do. Wish me luck!!

Sunday, September 28, 2008

Black or White?

Once upon a time, during the days of comic books and fairy tales and grandmothers' bedtime stories, I knew only two kinds of people, the Good guy and the Bad guy.
The good guy beats up the bad guy and it's the End of Story.
How neat is that?

Later I learned that real people come in shades of gray. That's when I started placing people in different gradients of grayscale. (yeah, somewhat like those stupid color scale strips they show in the ads of skin whitening creams)
All's fine till that.

But now, I have a problem.
What do I do with people who are high on the Black level and equally high on the White level? You know, one moment you feel they are too good to be true.. and the next moment, they give you reason enough to believe that they are the latest earthly incarnations of the devil himself. Now this is where I'm at loss. Either I can see pitch dark Black OR blinding White. I find myself oscillating them between the extremes and never manage to strike a balance.

Do you come across people like that? How d'you deal with them, then?

Thursday, September 18, 2008


Ding Dong!!! I'm back, I'm back!! (ok, that was a pathetically desperate try at sounding enthu.. :| )
So folks, it's been quite a while..
Sadly, things weren't as rosy rosy as I thought it would be. :/ My one month long sickness vacation has gloriously extended to a couple of months. hmmph.
Though I'm very fine except for feeling a li'l weak. Good news is that I'm almost almost back on track. :)

Major vacation activity :Reading a lot.. as in really really reading.. you see.. to the extent that I've more or less become friends with the librarian at the British library here. :)
Achievement of the week: I finished my once-in-5years customary read of 'Gone with the wind' for the third time.
One of my dumb quirks.. I'm planning on doing that till the time I don't find the book that hooking anymore.

Ah, there I go.. the real post is actually supposed to be the tag that good blog friends Chris and Seema have honored me with.
yeah, it's the gud old 'quotes' tag.
yawning?? how rude! :{

This is what the tag is about: “Jot down 5 of your favorite quotes from the various books you’ve read. If you don’t have the books with you now, googling (Wikiquotes and the like) can be used to find them. Tag five people and acknowledge the person who tagged you.”

As I'm in the 'Gone with the wind' hangover, I had to seriously fight this very strong urge to put up 5 quotes from only that book. :/

So, there you go!!

1. From Gone with the wind
"Hunger gnawed at her empty stomach again and she said aloud: 'As God is my witness, and God is my witness, the Yankees aren't going to lick me. I'm going to live through this, and when it's over, I'm never going to be hungry again. No, nor any of my folks. If I have to steal or kill - as God is my witness, I'm never going to be hungry again."

-Lying weak from hunger in a vegetable garden at the burnt-out Twelve Oaks, Scarlett decides that not only is she going to survive, but she is going to prosper.

2. From Papillon
"Make the best of what we offer you, and you will suffer less than you deserve."

-Camp Commandant

3. From Bhagavad Gita
"The mind acts like an enemy for those who do not control it."

4. From To kill a mocking bird
"You never really understand a person until you consider things from his point of view... Until you climb inside of his skin and walk around in it."

-Atticus Finch

5. From The Alchemist
"It's the possibility of having a dream come true that makes life interesting."

And I tag:
hmm.. tough one, since most of the folks have already done it, I guess..
1. Santosh - I'm expecting a consolidated bill at my doorstep anytime now, for all the tagging tortures. Still.. :)
2. Divkiran
3. Surya
4. Anoop
5. Reia